'With You' I Can Do Without

by sunstained

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Recorded in the Winter and Spring of 2015, "With You I Can Do Without" is our first full record and first full representation of our sound as a band.

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released June 25, 2015

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sunstained Charlton, Massachusetts

Emo/Post-Hardcore from the woods of Massachusetts.

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Track Name: I Saw God (in the Fire Reading my Bible)
i've been shaking in the cold
At least i've got some place to go
It's been burning through my bones
I Just want to be alone
I dont want to be alone
Track Name: Cold Drift
I close my eyes, and I watch you drift
away from me

All the wind
coming in through your window
all the cold
freezing on your pillow
all the chill
of a dying willow

shiver slumber Icy sliver
Track Name: Pale In Comparison
I tried to recount a dream
But I can't remember anything
sleeping with my eyes wide open
but I never see anything

Drown with me
In the darkness of an october night
Sinking deep
to a place and time where I felt almost alright
I don't hate the winter
But i don't miss the cold
I don't hate your words
But I hate that we're older

The more I age the more I know
Every Step leaves less space to grow
trade discomfort for a heart of stone
the airs alright but the wind

chills me to the bone

frail and fragile
you left me battered and worn
nothing mattered
except trying to stay warm

I want more than existence
something more than cyclic days
I want to feel more like a person
and less like a mistake
Track Name: Overgrowth
They kept us away from safety
Boarded us up from our youth
from the rotted wood and rusty chains
and flowers just barely in bloom
gave way to metal skeletons
tried to tell us they're safe
lifeless and unimaginative
i'd rather swing into the grave

find a flaw examine it
wrap your mind entranced with it
my critical analysis is breaking me
down I am sick
Of thinking; end mental atrophy
eviscerate all aware in me
I'm uncomfortable so please empty my skull
of this death creeping

take a stab at me
I am emotionless
just the tide ebbing; oceans fist
my only wish
Is some fucking peace and let
my goddamn mind be quiet
Track Name: Your Mirror
The day I die is the day that I wake up
and continue to tell myself I've had enough
I'm losing interest in what I care about

The next time you look at me I won't look back
The next time you talk to me I won't react

Have you ever stared into your mirror at night
And wondered what happened after your last goodbye
what happens to your ghost when you die

I thought so many times and I can't rid my head
of the thoughts that haunt me when I lay in my bed
Of the hate i feel towards every breath
and my stomach whenever I feel like death
Track Name: Wallflower
I'm the wallflower that you forgot to water
find the reservoir it must be inside me somewhere
wash the dust off rusty ribs, let them rise maybe i'll live
keep my nerves in check, i'm relying on you to keep me from being a wreck

drought, hanging on you,
base my life around you
waste my time fault truth
hold me together i'm broken and bruised

send me a letter I don't need to check my phone
to know that you're off doing something better than sleeping off the pain at home
im writing post cards to my old self telling him hes such a drag
dragging myself out of bed to get the nerve to get you of my head

hanging, staring at the ground
aching, my back is hurting now
cause i'm not used to fighting for myself
you used to pick my words, play my curse, leave me intellectually bound

I think I've been cursed not to feel
numb, nothing to conceal
keep you apart from me
so you stop burdening
Track Name: Embers
You were just an ember burning; dying in the freezing air
But you somehow kept alight in me and you stayed there
Burning through my flesh you make me barren now and again
I wish i knew one way or another if we were meant

But the flames catch, the nights stretch
and i'm burnin away
the coals spark, the worlds dark
I'm getting carried away

And it drags
drags on out
these embers
won't burn out

Ashes never come just specs of red and black inside of me
Blood courses fever pitch never leaving time for healing
I wish you would've stayed around it might've made things more clear
now the winds in ever direction there's a ship i cannot steer

drifting, sifting
through the burns on my hands
to extinguish, relinquish
the hold you have on me now

these coals have not yet turned to ashes
and yet my heart has become so passive
Please dying embers just give me a sound
sometimes i wish you were still around
Track Name: Ashes
I'm still the same sad kid that you loved
but i never loved you, just had me feeling enough
years later I don't feel much
just thoughtful and tired and scared and worked up

there's no balance no solace for me
I lost all my serenity at the age of 15
I still think about the way you used to look at me
And lie to myself about the way things could be

I'm shaking like a stranger
who you are now
growth in separation
the way you turned out

but i'm turning my back

it's nothing
I wont go back to being miserable
there's too much to live for
to waste time planning my funeral
it's hurtful
letting you take center in my mind
the memories are getting dull
just a sketch and i'm erasing the lines

of our past life
I grew so much and I gave it up
so i could feel fine
so I could find some fucking balance and start living my goddamn life

pour water on the embers
set fire to the notes
I wrote in hopes they'd help me to fall in love
but I've never even had something close
just been learning to cope
i spoke in fear of finding myself out
i knew i'd been feeding my doubt

When you smiled at me in the cemetery
did you honestly believe that I could manifest happiness, please
I've been a wreck for some days
leave my past in a haze, and my mind is a maze and my heart a blaze
my fingers trace familiar shapes on my chest
A dying sunset watch the world sleep in death oh
do you remember spending nights under the stars when we walked out in front of cars
you let me tear you apart

it's cold outside my house
there's no stars there's only clouds
with you I can do without
the embers they burned out